Male 35 years old. I have a history of severe medication induced damage I have no mental health diagnose but do have physical ailments. I currently don't have anything to live for to be honest. I got arrested and thrown into a psychiatric ward where I was tortured and poisoned against my will....my life is completely ruined by the neurological damage caused by meds
Some time ago I felt really detached from myself. So I contacted my ex wife whom I haven't seen for + 12 years she got cancer and chemo throughout life. We talked about a few things and she forgave me for past actions she even send me "xx
". She was totally cool and we discussed iatrogenic damage. She's the kind of spiritual person that's openminded, close to nature, sensitive emphatic person
I tried telling my story which was difficult. She didn't reply...she basically rejected me and ghosted me. I feel defeated. I talked about very personal things but once I said "psychiatry"....gone...people who you love abandoning you when they find out you somehow get irreversibly damaged in a psych ward. I didn't expect her to ghost me...even tho you are innocent and have no mental illness the stigma on people who've been in a psych ward is similar to that of people infected with leprecy or HIV, or treatment of Jews during WW2
I talked to another psychiatry victim a women who got poisoned. I talked to her almost daily for like 6 months she was constantly suicidal. We had a conversation being flirty and joking but also more serious about her struggles. I told her she needs to call me if she kills herself.
For no appearant reason send me a low quality audio recording making me out to be a fool and an idiot. The end says F**** idiot.
I did absolutely nothing wrong.
I got blocked on the app I can't see her status...basically ghosted me as well I assume
The few serious girlfriends cheated on me or were difficult relationships in general ( keep in mind that some GF were religious or more conservative). In my early twenties I was very succesfull in dating and never had any problem getting a date. Western Women in the dating scene are so toxic...I don't believe that all women are bad but a really big significant portion is really bad.
My narcissist mot basically betrayed me and got me stuck into psychiatry for no appearant reason by lying to the police..I don't trust any women anymore which sucks because there are good women out there in every color or type.
Everytime I have been talking about psych system issues or experiences it's usually men who listen and don't judge I have absolutely no good experiences sharing my experience with females. It's usually the open minded men who are into psychedelics who are receptive to different truths. Some other people during Recovery group meeting shared similar experiences.
I don't know why so many women behave like absolute shit when a man owns his experience, trauma and shares his intimate feelings. It's probably seen as weak or something. Western culture is traumatic, superficial and women are simply more receptive to that negativity than men.
So basically I stopped trusting all women and other patients I received so much toxicity last few years . Also patients abusing trust I stopped talking to any of them.
I always have been more conservative. I know about all kind of issues threatening civilization like illegal mass immigration, political issues, corruption, climate. I completely stopped giving a shit about that and women.
I always used to love the white race, western culture, history and so forth. (I also liked Japanese culture, Chinese food and persian women). Sometimes when I'm in the grocery store I see those cute little blonde kids and I actually want to do something for their future but usually I end up in apathy and demoralised due to med damage and issues.
It's never the evil banker or ISIS terrorist who screw you over it's always appearantly by your own people. I rarely see Arabs and other ethnicities or cultures fucking eachother over like whites do. It's always some white liberal nurse or psychiatrist or whatever.
I'm really doing my best I just lost interest in everything white and western. At this point I wouldn't fight in a war for western civilization in the west I would rather join the enemy and bomb the shit out of this insufferable civilization. At one point things are so rotten you might as well tear it down.
Normally I never care about watching women /porn / erotic shit on the internet. Lately because of stress I have increasingly watch online. Because of all these above issues I found myself watching African black women, white ******** porn and European replacement ******** porn...I don't even care anymore about sexual acts I can't feel anything because of PSSD (numbness caused by destroyed nerves).....it's just pure anger at this point being vented in a unhealthy manner......I don't want to have white children anymore I completely rejected the white female archetype in my psyche.
So I go online again to vent here in the hope I get some relief...or a escape. I can't solve my issues anyway I lost my emotions and can't process them anymore like I used to you need to feel them in order to heal and work through the stages.
I know I have iatrogenic damage I know I have issues. White people or people in general in western Europe are doomed sorry.....if one of your own gets treated like this by your own and you even get shunned by ex wife and another female patient your civilization is doomed in every way....I got fucking treated better in prison by criminals with a violent past than white people.
I guess I wait until I improve to the point where I can relocate to a non-white non-european country.. Preferably somewhere off grid in nature
Some time ago I felt really detached from myself. So I contacted my ex wife whom I haven't seen for + 12 years she got cancer and chemo throughout life. We talked about a few things and she forgave me for past actions she even send me "xx
". She was totally cool and we discussed iatrogenic damage. She's the kind of spiritual person that's openminded, close to nature, sensitive emphatic personI tried telling my story which was difficult. She didn't reply...she basically rejected me and ghosted me. I feel defeated. I talked about very personal things but once I said "psychiatry"....gone...people who you love abandoning you when they find out you somehow get irreversibly damaged in a psych ward. I didn't expect her to ghost me...even tho you are innocent and have no mental illness the stigma on people who've been in a psych ward is similar to that of people infected with leprecy or HIV, or treatment of Jews during WW2
I talked to another psychiatry victim a women who got poisoned. I talked to her almost daily for like 6 months she was constantly suicidal. We had a conversation being flirty and joking but also more serious about her struggles. I told her she needs to call me if she kills herself.
For no appearant reason send me a low quality audio recording making me out to be a fool and an idiot. The end says F**** idiot.
I did absolutely nothing wrong.
I got blocked on the app I can't see her status...basically ghosted me as well I assume
The few serious girlfriends cheated on me or were difficult relationships in general ( keep in mind that some GF were religious or more conservative). In my early twenties I was very succesfull in dating and never had any problem getting a date. Western Women in the dating scene are so toxic...I don't believe that all women are bad but a really big significant portion is really bad.
My narcissist mot basically betrayed me and got me stuck into psychiatry for no appearant reason by lying to the police..I don't trust any women anymore which sucks because there are good women out there in every color or type.
Everytime I have been talking about psych system issues or experiences it's usually men who listen and don't judge I have absolutely no good experiences sharing my experience with females. It's usually the open minded men who are into psychedelics who are receptive to different truths. Some other people during Recovery group meeting shared similar experiences.
I don't know why so many women behave like absolute shit when a man owns his experience, trauma and shares his intimate feelings. It's probably seen as weak or something. Western culture is traumatic, superficial and women are simply more receptive to that negativity than men.
So basically I stopped trusting all women and other patients I received so much toxicity last few years . Also patients abusing trust I stopped talking to any of them.
I always have been more conservative. I know about all kind of issues threatening civilization like illegal mass immigration, political issues, corruption, climate. I completely stopped giving a shit about that and women.
I always used to love the white race, western culture, history and so forth. (I also liked Japanese culture, Chinese food and persian women). Sometimes when I'm in the grocery store I see those cute little blonde kids and I actually want to do something for their future but usually I end up in apathy and demoralised due to med damage and issues.
It's never the evil banker or ISIS terrorist who screw you over it's always appearantly by your own people. I rarely see Arabs and other ethnicities or cultures fucking eachother over like whites do. It's always some white liberal nurse or psychiatrist or whatever.
I'm really doing my best I just lost interest in everything white and western. At this point I wouldn't fight in a war for western civilization in the west I would rather join the enemy and bomb the shit out of this insufferable civilization. At one point things are so rotten you might as well tear it down.
Normally I never care about watching women /porn / erotic shit on the internet. Lately because of stress I have increasingly watch online. Because of all these above issues I found myself watching African black women, white ******** porn and European replacement ******** porn...I don't even care anymore about sexual acts I can't feel anything because of PSSD (numbness caused by destroyed nerves).....it's just pure anger at this point being vented in a unhealthy manner......I don't want to have white children anymore I completely rejected the white female archetype in my psyche.
So I go online again to vent here in the hope I get some relief...or a escape. I can't solve my issues anyway I lost my emotions and can't process them anymore like I used to you need to feel them in order to heal and work through the stages.
I know I have iatrogenic damage I know I have issues. White people or people in general in western Europe are doomed sorry.....if one of your own gets treated like this by your own and you even get shunned by ex wife and another female patient your civilization is doomed in every way....I got fucking treated better in prison by criminals with a violent past than white people.
I guess I wait until I improve to the point where I can relocate to a non-white non-european country.. Preferably somewhere off grid in nature